Not as planned….

So starting this blog didn’t go as planned I had planned to get on daily and jot all my thoughts and emotions down…. yea easier said than done. I recently started classes at my local college to better my life for me and my family and let me tell you I have been one busy mama. I am non stop from taking care of the household chores, taking care of my kids, homework, and just some me and hubby time. I literally have no time for me or time to actually get on to write. well today I did I am caught up in household chores and homework and the hubby is working so here I am! Recently I have lost a friend and when I say lost I mean she’s still alive just we are no longer friends. To be honest when It happened it hurt, hurt so bad that I didn’t know what to do with my self we were always together did everything together, understood looks from each other without having to say words, my kids loved her, I loved her kids. When I say recently I actually mean almost 2 years ago but honestly it feels like not long ago. It took a while but since then I have truly found myself without her. I found out who I actually am as one person. It felt like betrayal from her and a new friend when they stopped talking to me and when I found out the reason I was shocked! Shocked because she knew me better than anyone and still chose to believe someone we had just met. But over time I understood that maybe we were only close because our husbands were. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be? In the time we were friends I didn’t look for other friends I though she was it my BFF. Since then however I have made many new friends amazing people who bring me up when I’m down and encourage me to do my best. Who tell me that I am a amazing person and anybody who doesn’t see that is a loss to them. Well almost 2 years later and here I am, the happiest I have been in a long time going back to school, and even started my own little creation shop. Making cups, shirts, decal stickers and many many more things. Maybe it was gods way to throw me back out there to make new friends to find the new me without her? I just thank god my hubby also helped me through it all the crying and questions I had lord knows I annoyed him lol. Anyways rant over lol I hope I haven’t lost all you yet and you continue to follow my journey through life. Maybe we have a lot in common and you just need someone who is going through the same thing? Let me be your person, Let me carry your load with you. We all need to stick together in this world. Hope you all have a amazing week!!

One day at a time….

Ever feel like you cant do something or you wont be able to finish something? Let me tell you I feel like that all the time. you know the life of a mama, get kids up ready for school. take them to school, then come home start cleaning or feeding your other children, laundry, washing dishes, just so many things you have to do before the kids get home. There is never enough time to do everything you want to do. I can barely get up in the morning, make my coffee, and get the kids up. When I get back home my first though is to crawl back into bed but my 2 year old stops me because she’s hungry. Now I’m wanting to go back to school while my husband works and I work the weekend. So all that piling up is just to much to wrap my head around and I know its going to be tough but I’m willing to do it if it helps give my family a better life. Life for my children without all the struggle I really don’t want them to go through. Mamas ever feel unappreciated like what you do is never noticed? My kids think dad does it all? I’m like I’m sorry when did you see dad get up and make supper or get your clothes ready or fixed your bed? Lol he literally gets a lot of the credit that I do and I’m like no mama did it. haha. My husband does help with bathes or rides to school sometimes helps put the kids to bed. But mama does the majority of the work and does not even get credit. And now I see what my mom had to go through with all 5 of us growing up and us taking advantage of her never thanking her enough for all she did. All the sleepless nights she had with us the many many meals she would have to make for us and we ate ALOT! I see it now, I see it now that I have to go through with all of it the sleepless nights, the worry when we got sick, the hassle of getting everyone’s stuff together washed and ready for us. Being a mom may seem like a easy job for many and I give props to the ones who are stay at home moms I’m home 5 days a week and work 2 days so I at least get 2 days where a couple of hours i get a break from my monsters. the summer is the absolute the worst my kids eat literally every hour the bill for groceries for June, July, and august is unbelievable. when school starts I’m super excited because i know it will be a lot cheaper. Anyways enough of my talking about my little problems. Come back tomorrow for more of my crazy thoughts. Glad to have you here.

 “When you are going through hell, keep on going. Never never never give up.” – Winston Churchill

The mama who could.

Hey guys it’s me the sleepy mama. Do you ever get so frustrated when you clean the whole house and then about 5 minutes later it looks like a tornado went through it?? Doesn’t it make you angry? I know it makes me angry, or when you just buy groceries and then the kids complain there is no food so you go look and sure enough they have ate every single thing in the fridge and cabinet. I love my kids but I know for certain they do not eat as much when they are at school but when they are home with me its hour after hour that they are hungry. And my husband oh my dear husband that man cannot for the life of him put his clothes where they go nor his shoes, and I tell him if our 2 year old can do it you should be able to do it too. When i was younger i never in my life imagined that i would have 4 kids all 2 years apart working at a grocery store. It’s not what i wanted (well the working at the grocery store part). I wanted to be so many things growing up a doctor, a teacher, a surgeon, and nurse who helped with the newborns. So I finally decided to go back to school and decided what I wanted to do the most was be a nurse. I know it’s long overdue but my babies are still young I need to get this done now. So with alall this randomness I hope you guys come back and hope you share with me your stories. I look forward to reading them!

❤ Xoxo Sleepy Mama Xoxo ❤

“Piece is the beauty of life. It is sunshine. It is the smile of a child, the love of a mother, the joy of a father, the togetherness of a family. It is the advancement of a man, the victory of a just cause, the triumph of truth.”

Menachem begin

Trying to get this started!

So when I started this blog I thought I wanted to write about parenting and about babies and such. After thinking about it for a while as much as I like talking and writing about just parenting I wanna write about life the struggles and the many blessing we as moms go through. I want to talk about my kids and how they make me want to pull out my hair but then they make me so glad I have them. I want to talk about my oh so loving that I wanna strangle him husband. Just the many many things in life that we go through. So I hope you come back daily for my entries and I hope you can relate to the things I talk about. and I hope to hear your stories and your relatable opinions! Hope yall have a amazing day! Thank you XO The Sleepy Mama XO ❤