Not as planned….

So starting this blog didn’t go as planned I had planned to get on daily and jot all my thoughts and emotions down…. yea easier said than done. I recently started classes at my local college to better my life for me and my family and let me tell you I have been one busy mama. I am non stop from taking care of the household chores, taking care of my kids, homework, and just some me and hubby time. I literally have no time for me or time to actually get on to write. well today I did I am caught up in household chores and homework and the hubby is working so here I am! Recently I have lost a friend and when I say lost I mean she’s still alive just we are no longer friends. To be honest when It happened it hurt, hurt so bad that I didn’t know what to do with my self we were always together did everything together, understood looks from each other without having to say words, my kids loved her, I loved her kids. When I say recently I actually mean almost 2 years ago but honestly it feels like not long ago. It took a while but since then I have truly found myself without her. I found out who I actually am as one person. It felt like betrayal from her and a new friend when they stopped talking to me and when I found out the reason I was shocked! Shocked because she knew me better than anyone and still chose to believe someone we had just met. But over time I understood that maybe we were only close because our husbands were. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be? In the time we were friends I didn’t look for other friends I though she was it my BFF. Since then however I have made many new friends amazing people who bring me up when I’m down and encourage me to do my best. Who tell me that I am a amazing person and anybody who doesn’t see that is a loss to them. Well almost 2 years later and here I am, the happiest I have been in a long time going back to school, and even started my own little creation shop. Making cups, shirts, decal stickers and many many more things. Maybe it was gods way to throw me back out there to make new friends to find the new me without her? I just thank god my hubby also helped me through it all the crying and questions I had lord knows I annoyed him lol. Anyways rant over lol I hope I haven’t lost all you yet and you continue to follow my journey through life. Maybe we have a lot in common and you just need someone who is going through the same thing? Let me be your person, Let me carry your load with you. We all need to stick together in this world. Hope you all have a amazing week!!